Sex positions (or not)

I think sex positions, or lack of a plural with regard to them, are very important. 
I mean. 
It's true, every couple who fucks for an extended period of time develops some semblance of a routine, right? right? well. that's the case with me. 
and the thing is, considering i met my man-pie on Tinder, i thought maybe he'd be a little more... spontaneous/adventurous in bed. 
well. he's not. this is rare for a girl, but I'm the member of our duo who wants to give anal sex a try. i'm of the "try everything if you only get to fuck one person" mentality. i mean, seriously. let's fuck in other places ie: not only in your bed. or maybe let's try the lotus position, or that position i saw Marnie doing on girls where the dude fucked her from behind while lying on her back. agh. that would be so cool and nice. idk. i think maybe my boyfriend has a secret fear of crushing me to death and that he's also just a monstrously lazy fuck. but i literally am game for anything he's ever wanted to do, and i'm tired of that not being reciprocated. cowgirl is great, and i really like fucking him that way, but it's exhausting and getting a little tired, and it's hard to be like, "hey, you know how i said that you're really great in bed and stuff? well, we've been fucking the exact same way for 4 months and now i'm ready for shower sex/rough sex/anal play/every goddamned position we're physically capable of." even missionary would be a refreshing change of sexual scenery. he's a creative person! so am i! can we not improvise? can we not write a completely novel, eccentric story? can we not tease and tantalize each other in new ways? or at least put a much-needed twist on our usual sequence? it seems that this has not occurred to him. so i guess it's my job to be like "ehhh... so i was thinking. you know when you asked me if i thought you were boring in bed? well, tbh, friend... y'are."

I do things i don't want to do for him ALL. THE. TIME. i come out with his friends when i'm dead tired or sick. i go down on him even when i'd rather not. i fuck when he wants to, i leave him alone when he clearly doesn't. i get him water; i buy him food. i do all of this because i love him and i want him to know that he's important. but what about MEMEMEME? MAYBE JUST MAYBE WE CAN TRY THINGS I WANT TO DO INSTEAD OF STAYING IN THE SAME BORING, SWEATY COMFORT ZONE THAT WE'VE BEEN STAGNATING IN FOREVER. 

one more comment; i've heard him say "oh, i'm a dom", like that excuses everything and automatically makes me a "sub" by default. well this is annoying. can't we take turns? can't i lead the way sometimes? what if i'm a goddamned "dom" too, ya dummy? jesus. who else hates when people state things like this without any regard for the other person, or the fact that they like occupying more than one role instead of having one thrust upon them? thoughts?

have a good day, and remember to get ANGRY about your sex life! 

much love and erotic energy, 

your bitch, kate


- An Sexy Lil Afterthought Added Two Days Later -

so, friends. on the topic of sex/sexuality, i believe my whole masturbating mechanism has, in effect, been blocked. i've always been heavily discouraged from watching porn/doing anything sexual and have a relatively conservative Christian mother (she lost her virginity at 22, which albeit late, came as a shock since i was convinced that my conception marked the date of her deflowerment. apparently not). all this to lead up to the fact that, i've only recently been exploring the grittier corners of the web, searching for erotica that actually resonates with me. well, it turns out that porn with a chubby guy (who does that remind me of? hm) tends to be a lot hotter and more real to me. like a lot hotter. so here. check out this wonderful thing i found in the bountiful porn-filled garden of eden (aka pornhub). it's hot and cute and amateur and real and damn... there are like 3 positions there that my boyfriend and i have never even ventured near. give it a watch. it's interesting and nice to see normal weird bodies be so sexy and confident. i can't stress enough how much i love imperfection; how much it turns me on. my boyfriend thinks he has a shitty body because he has a beer belly and a double chin, but i think he's a wicked sex god because idk i like that he writes and doesn't obsess over eight-packs or how much protein's in his hemp-seed breakfast shake. ya feel? i want meaty, hefty, yummy him. who else loves someone's unconventional body?